July 14, 2017 will be a day that I will cherish for the rest of my days. On this day, for the first time in my life, I actually felt seen by people.
I'm so overwhelmed with emotion. Like today is the first time that I actually feel seen. Like y'all actually see me & the work that do. Today, I sat on a panel & got to talk about my OWN projects & endeavors. Like I was asked to be apart because someone actually believes in me. People actually told me that they wrote down shit that I said. Like I helped sparked something within them. Then tonight I actually set up a table and did tarot readings for people. This was my first time ever doing anything like this. I really thought that I was just gonna just be sitting there. You know how you walk past Jehovah Witnesses when they pass out stuff? That. (LOL) Y'all.... my table was full the entire night. Like I did 25+ readings. I'm shocked... and amazed. Several people cried, jumped or even screamed bc they couldn't believe how the cards were able to connect with their current situations. I'm so grateful that God saw fit to give me this gift and calling.
My name is Hakeem and I am a tarot reader and a healer. I am the Dope Black King. I am here to help people evolve and become the best them that they can possibly be. Seeing people grow is is what makes me happy. I am living in my purpose.
This post has been sitting in my drafts for almost 3 months now. This moment was monumental in my journey of self discovery, yet it has been clouded with self doubt since. Today, I sat and reflected on why I never posted it. I had to be really open and honest with myself. Y'all, I am afraid of starting another endeavor and not being consistent with it. I'm afraid of being a failure. I'm afraid of not being good because if I'm not good then people won't love me. Right? Wrong. This negative thought has guided my foot steps all of my life. The people around me truly love me for and despite my humanity. My struggles and imperfections don't make me any less worthy of love and affection. I also realized that I'm afraid of things actually working. Like am I prepared to become the male queer spiritual child of Miss Cleo and Iyanla? Time will tell. During this Fall season, I am challenging myself to really work on reshaping my own mindsets about myself. Loving and valuing myself more. Keep me lifted in y'all's prayers. Asè.